Transpersonal Guide, Creative Dreamer.

The Story of Two Suns Dreaming

After years of working in physically demanding jobs, then in sales, I couldn't do the whole "rat race" anymore. The constant consumerism and the blatant need for material wealth felt soulless—just a frantic grasping at a definition of happiness. It was an end to a means, and for me, that end was a dead end.

I decided to pull back, to dedicate my time to homeschooling and concentrating on our family business. But as I reached my half-century milestone, especially after the seismic shifts of 2020, I felt an undeniable call to live a more aligned life. I went back to my roots, revisiting my spiritual practices to find what truly worked and what didn't. I began relearning, and more importantly, dropping a lot of what I thought was true.

I'm now embracing the gifts I’ve hidden for so many years due to the beliefs I had adopted—that life was just what we did, and we were meant to follow the script. But I now recognize that as a divine being, that’s not what I came here to be. Revisiting my Akashic work from a decade ago, I discovered so much more that I wish I had known before. It was helping me in a failing marriage, a disconnected family, and through life-affirming illusions that I hadn’t ever come close to realizing. I simply didn't have the people or the capacity to consciously receive it.

Now, I recognize that I was the source of my own suffering. I had a profound realization that I had “swiped right to go left,” and everything I could have been doing was the exact opposite of what I was. This paradox taught me that to thrive, I had to tune into my own unique rhythm—one that wasn't dictated by the world around me.

My reality was riddled with stuckness, and after years of mainstream therapies that didn't help, I felt abandoned and betrayed. Yet, a deep nudge from within, through my own dreaming, began to challenge the unseen. My subconscious and my body were screaming at me that I needed to find a balance between the dualities of my life. The dream of two suns became a powerful reminder for me to balance myself, be my own priority, and reassess the power dynamics in all my relationships.

I went into years of reflection and a personal reawakening, beginning a descent into the hidden world of my own divine mother. From that descent, I witnessed the sacred unification of my own Solar Sun, the masculine aspect of myself. Marrying these two dualities brought an awareness of the divinity and sacredness of who we are. Bringing this divine union into the everyday is now my mission—a path to evolving into our truest selves. Navigating this is not a transcendent experience, but a real-world journey.

It became a time for being bold, finding the courage to master my own mind, and stepping out of the challenge to be like everyone else. I faced the woman I had been—the mother, the daughter—and confronted the distortions that had been holding me back. The pain from this came up, burning at my throat, but it was a fall that sent me into the depths of ongoing reflection. I began to transmute that pain into a newfound beauty, challenging my own fear to find the excitement in what these challenges presented.

Through this process, I found my own self-design, and it is my mission to help others find that for themselves too. There is no more shrinking, no more holding back. I stand in my wisdom and my own power, and I allow others to find that voice and do the same, however that feels and finds them through the process.

As a Transpersonal Guide and Intuitive Dreamer, Artist, and Holistic Art Therapist, I have now reached a point in my journey where it is time to get myself out there, to help others and to begin creating a community that will allow more to unravel in the new world. It is a path of radical self-knowing where you will discover that the answers you've been seeking have been within you all along.